This is interesting.....

I was playing on the internet, yes of course, when I should have been working (shut up Anon!) and found this little quiz thing. This is what it said about my "life path".

Your Life Path Number is 6

Your purpose in life is to help others You are very compassionate, and you offer comfort to those around you. It pains you to see other people hurting, and you do all in your power to help them. You take on responsibility, and don't mind personal sacrifice. You are the ultimate giver. In love, you offer warmth and protection to your partner. You often give too much of yourself, and you rarely put your own needs first. Emotions tend to rule your decisions too much, especially when it comes to love. And while taking care of people is great, make sure to give them room to grow on their own.

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Opps!

Okay, My bad. I've been corrected. "Its" is not spelled correctly. It is actually spelled "Itz". Sorry. My bad!! :-)

Its

Have you ever heard of a place called "Its"? What is an Its?? Well, I found out on Saturday. It is something like an Incredible Pizza or a Dave and Buster for kids. SOOO much better than the Chuck E. Cheese days. Man I hated and still do hate, Chuck E. Cheese!!! That annoying little Mouse!!

Cameron decided that he wanted to go to Its on Saturday so we all packed up and away we went. He was soo good on Friday that we decided he deserved a nice day of family fun. I just wish I had half of that boy's energy! First order of business once we got there was food. Of course, they have the standard pizza buffet, very similar to CeCes Pizza. And of course, you get salads, pastas, spuds, etc. The best part, FREE ICE CREAM for desert. Now, thats what I'm talking about!!! After we had our fill of the buffet, it was off to the game room.

That boy ran from one thing to another like there was no tomorrow. He was having a ball! He rode the bumber cars and the little train and played more and more and more games. I swear by the end of it all he had over a thousand tickets that he won! It was incredible. And it was awesome to see him smile from ear to ear and just laugh and laugh. He needed a good time. He was sooo exhausted by the time we left, but he sure fought off sleeping.

We all piled up in Momma's bed and watched Firehouse Dog. OMG! What a cute movie! We had soo much fun. But man was I exhausted!!! I just loved watching him have such a great time!

Question...

How many times do you have to "try" and commit suicide before you get the help you are evidently asking for?

My sister-in-law ("SIL") must be now on her 100th time of trying to kill herself and still her phychaitrist won't commit her. Every time she does this, she takes pills and then tells someone hey, I took pills! So she is taken to the ER where she is given charcoal or has her stomach pumped. This last time she did it twice in one day except the first time she took her pills, went to the ER, had some charcoal and went home. So, evidently she got bored around midnight or so got up and called 911 and told them that she had drank a whole bottle of 409. My brother was awaken by an officer telling him they were taking the SIL to the hospital yet again. The first time the ambulance picked her up she told them that she just wanted to go to sleep and that is why she took all the pills. Not real sure what taking the 409 would have done for her. However, after all the tests were performed, it turns out, she never actually drank the 409. Now this was just last week!

Now, why after all the trips to the hospital and all the "suicide" attempts does someone not step in and give her some help? We can't commit her becuase she is free white and over 21. She commits herself and then gets frustrated after three days of things not helping and checks herself out again. So, now what? My poor mother goes over there almost every single day to take care of the two kids who have to live in this unstable environment.

I just dont understand why it is that she is still allowed to live in this home with these two children putting them at risk when she is obviously asking for help and her doctors wont give it to her.

Now what??????

Life

One of my favorite quotes has to be:

"...life was like a box a chocolates, never know what you're gonna get."

Isn't that the truth? Do you ever look back at your life and think, dang, that's not what I thought it would be at all. This is definitely not where I thought I would be at this age. I think I must have missed something along the way. Maybe I zigged when I should have zagged. Not sure, but this is definitely not where or how I thought I would end up. Not that I had a great plan or anything. I just know that if I did have a plan back then, it wasn't this.

Yes, I'm having a pitty party, and yes, everyone is invited! You know what they say, misery loves company. :-)

I just hate when you look back at things and wonder, where did I go wrong? Why me? or Why not me? Somebody told me once, well, she never gave me a reason NOT to love her. Okay well, I never did either so why am I not loved anymore? What do all these women that are desired by so many and sought after by so many have that I dont have? Other than of course the obvious, the whole looks thing. Of course, looking at some of the people that I am refering to, its not like they are drop dead goregous either, so what gives? And of course, this was all after they made me believe that they missed me and that they really did still love me and that they felt like they made a mistake letting me go. Don't all women want to feel that way? Don't we all want to feel like there is that one someone out there that just feels like they can't live without you and they can't wait to be with you again and would move heaven and earth to be there? Of course, bottom line is, its all BS. They dont care. At least that is how its always worked out for me. I've made alot of mistakes in my life just wanting to be desired and loved. Guess some of us are just destined not to have that. It sucks grasping at straws that aren't really there but that are being dangled out there in front of you just for fun. Kinda messes with the whole self esteem thing. which of course, I never had much to start with.